Sunday, February 29, 2004 -
Do you like my blisters there on my arm? That was 2 days after I burnt it with hot oil. It is as sore as it looks. Kate says it looks like I have the chicken pox but those are blisters. This is what it looked like after a couple of hours Huge, isn't it?
What a great weekend ! NOT ! Milt is sick and he is so bitchy when he is sick.
I hurt my back yesterday somehow ~ it was great til I had a shower. Then getting dressed after, I could hardly stand up. It is still killing me. I couldn't even roll over in bed last night without screaming in pain. I have no idea what I did to it but man, it hurts.
Kylee got home from the OEC ~ turns out she was sick almost the entire time she was there. Her and another kid didn't get out of bed at all on Thursday. She was feeling a bit better Friday and she insisted on going to Katherine's birthday party yesterday. Hopefully she is okay. I asked her why she didn't phone me and I could have went and picked her up at the OEC but she said she didnt' want to waste my $100 by coming home early ! So I paid $100 for her to sleep ! Great !
We ended up cancelling supper cause Milt wasn't feeling well. This is the 2nd time we've postponed but at the least the first time wasn't us. We are going to try for next weekend ! We'll see how that goes.
Hopefully everyone is well enough to go to work and school tomorrow !
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Friday, February 27, 2004 -
Kate's band won silver at the Jazz Festival.
The car is not running great. Milt needs to rebuild the alternator.
Kelsey is sick now and Milt wasn't feeling well last night. He went to work this morning anyway - what a trouper.
Kylee is home tonight then off to Katherine's tomorrow.
We are going out for supper with John & Nancy ~ that reminds me, I need to phone her.
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Wednesday, February 25, 2004 -
Kylee is off to the OEC today for a few days. Should be fun for her ~ lots of outdoor activities. Hopefully it gets as warm as it is suppose to this week so the kids don't freeze. Then she's off to a sleepover/birthday party for the weekend. Wish my social life was that full.
Milt fixed the car and it is running great.
Kate went to the dentist yesterday. I was thinking $50, maybe $75 ~ but no - I was so wrong !!! It was $184 !!!!!!! I just about flipped. They're lucky I had $184 ! I normally don't. Hopefully the OEC payment doesn't go in before I get my $152 back from the insurance company. WOW $184 ~ she didn't even have any work done; just x-rays. And they wanted her back today !!!! Forget it ~ she's going back next week but Milt can pay for that visit. Holy shit !!!
Kari is feeling better today but she was up half the night last night complaining of a tummy ache again. I felt like crap this morning driving Milt to work; she better not give it to me.
Kate is going with the Jazz Band tomorrow to Music Festival in Collingwood. Hopefully they do okay. She doesn't like Jazz music that much but she joined the band anyway ~ expanding her horizons. She got the course calendar for Ryerson yesterday for the University course she wants to take. $5,000 !!!! tuition per year and it is a 4 year program. But she will have a Bachelor or Interior Design degree when she is done. She better get a job and soon ! I think I have her convinced that the job with Jenni won't be too bad this summer. She'll be able to save some money cause she won't have many expenses and there are no malls there so she won't be tempting to go shopping. Her biggest concern is seeing Jason but I'm sure they can work something out. Listowel isn't that far from Alvanley. She can't get a lifeguarding job yet cause I don't have the $325 for the NLS and CPR course she needs to finish her swimming. I was really hoping she'd be able to do that cause at least it is something she enjoys but unfortunately, she may not get to do what she really enjoys. Welcome to life, Kate.
I applied for a job through the EI office on the weekend. I got an application form to fill out yesterday so I mailed it back this morning. Uninsurable earnings but at this point, I don't care. Melissa got her T4 from Nucomm the other day; I'm still waiting for mine. That is all we're waiting for. Milt is starting to get anxious wanting to get them done.
Today is early dismissal from school. Everyone will have to come with me when I go pick up Milt from work ~ no peace and quiet at all.
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Monday, February 23, 2004 -
Another Monday - yuck ! Kari is home sick today - she had me up half the night complaining of a tummy ache. Kylee was up the other half of the night complaining of a headache cause she whacked the top of her head on a bump yesterday on her first trip down the hill. She has a bit of a goose egg on her head but they all complain so much it is hard to tell what is real pain and what is "their" pain.
The car was acting kinda funny on the drive home yesterday. Milt put some gas line anti-freeze in when we got home and never thought anything more of it. But on his way to work this morning, the discharge light came on so he thinks he needs a new alternator. Great ! And I need the car tomorrow ~ guess Kate will be going to the dentist without me.
I am not in as much pain as I thought I was going to be in today. I really need to get in shape.
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Sunday, February 22, 2004 -
Today was family day at Harrison Park {instead of Santa at Christmas time} for Hobarts Employees. It was a blast. Kate refused to get out of bed to come with us so it was not off to a good start but we had fun without her. I climbed all the way to the top of the tobagganing hill, watched the kids go down then nobody came back so I was stuck up there. I had no way of getting back down and I was not walking down. Finally Kelsey came back and brought me a tobaggan but then Kwyn came up and took it. He finally came back and we went down together ~ quite the site that is not to be repeated any time soon. Milt said everyone at the bottom was watching us come down. I almost bit my lip trying not to scream. It was fine til I hit a bump and fell backwards and started spinning. I thought we were gonna fall right off but we managed to stay on til the bottom. I hurt my shoulder but it was fun.
I haven't been on skates for about 5 years so that was fun too. My toes were kinda cramped {note to self: don't wear work socks when going skating} but it was like riding a bike. Definitely need to do that more.
Supper Friday night was a lot of fun. Food was gross and I had to drive over to Owen Sound in the rain but overall I had a blast. After supper we went grocery shopping, then I dropped Kate off with Jason and then I went to watch some of Ashley's hockey game. OOOO that was just bad. Next time I think we are going for supper then a movie - I wonder if Kim will want to see Return of the King?
I had a job interview on Saturday but had a major panic/anxiety attack when it was time to leave. I couldn't leave the house ! I e-mailed them later and told them that I was withdrawing from the application. Not sure why ~ I think I was just in over my head and there was no way I could have done the job. I want something with no responsibilty LOL and they were looking for an office administrator to run the whole place. Holy fuck ~ not me.
I got an e-mail from him today. Can't wait to see him this week. Haven't talked to him for almost 2 weeks. I miss him a lot.
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Thursday, February 19, 2004 -
This is going to be a long 5 days. There is suppose to be a storm coming tonight or tomorrow. Great - more snow and/or freezing rain.
Kim invited me to a girl's night tomorrow - supper and Ashley's hockey game. Kate and I are going - should be fun.
Milt had a bunch of tests done yesterday - he's fine. Just a check up and some x-rays to see if his back is getting any worse.
I feel much better today. I have 5 days to think about things so hopefully I have things figured out on Tuesday. I need a job ! NOW !
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Tuesday, February 17, 2004 -
Ummm, I am feeling much better today. Just chalk yesterday's rant up to not enough sleep or food since I haven't been able to do either the last week.
Everything is still kinda up in the air here but at least I feel like I will be able to deal with things a little more rationally now. I need to find a job and get on with my life, whereever and whatever that is.
Valentine's Day is over - I got roses (well, guilt roses but roses all the same) and some chocolate. Milt has not noticed how much weight I've lost lately but I keep wearing bulky sweaters and loose pants so he won't notice. I don't want him to notice. At least I am back to what I was when I quit working so that's a start. Maybe when I am closer to my ideal weight I will let him see but for now I don't want him to be part of this.
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Monday, February 16, 2004 -
I am so stupid. I hate men ! I am 40 years old - you'd think I'd know better than to trust anyone. I should know better than to let anyone touch me. As soon as I let my guard down and let someone in, they fucking stomp all over me. And Milt wonders why I have this door between us - I open it and he slams it in my face. How many times does someone get kicked before they stop getting up again. I can't keep doing this every day. My kids are monsters; even they treat me like shit. Kwyn's new name for me is "idiot''; sometimes I want to run and never look back. Would anyone even notice that I was gone? Probably not until they wanted me to serve them something. All Kate ever does is yell at me and everyone else for that matter. Milt says I am not tough enough on them and they walk all over me. I shouldn't have to be some big meanie to get my kids to respect me. I'd die for any one of them and what do I get from them? "Get me, get me, I want".
I hate everyone and everything and if I keep telling myself that, nobody can hurt me!
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Friday, February 13, 2004 -
Friday thank god ! What a week-- some good, some fan-fucking-tastic, some bad. The good - Kelsey is a genius; the fantastic - its a secret; the bad - I am so sick I just want to go back to bed. I have a sinus cold/headache and cramps to boot. At least the desire to throw up on someone has passed, only to be replaced by cramps and a sore back. I will be glad when menopause hits.
Kate missed the bus yesterday - I think this is going to be a long semester.
Kelsey was tested for the SAGES (gifted) program at school. I was shocked; I didn't know anything about it until afterwards. I spent 1/2 hour on the phone with the guy that did the testing. I don't think she scored high enough to get into the program but he is going to recommend she be given extra, more challenging work. Wow ! I was impressed. She is so hard to get motivated to do anything I never thought she would be tested. So that's 3 for 3 now ! I always knew they were smart but no idea there were almost geniuses.
Kelsey said her speech and got a B. She actually stood up there and sang Hilary Duff's song Why Not in front of her class. She wrote it completely by herself (after a LOT of fighting and crying). It wasn't very long but its only grade 4. Kylee said hers yesterday - she had to start over cause she messed up. But she is sick too; her nose looks like a cherry tomatoe stuck on her face. They want to go to the dance tonight but not if she keeps coughing and sneezing.
I went out for breakfast on Wednesday with Beth. That was fun. Haven't seen her in a long time. Need to do that more often.
Tomorrow is Valentine Day ! I am going to spend the entire day in bed, alone, trying to shake this damn cold. I should be spending today in bed but I promised to help at Penny Carnival today. I can't even take a dristan or sinutab cause they make me sleep and that wouldn't be good today.
Today is Friday the 13th. I am not superstitous at all but I'm staying away from all ladders today anyway.
Monday, February 09, 2004 -
Monday morning and the buses were running ! Hoorah for buses. It is snowing, blowing and a winter storm watch out but they went to school anyway. Hallelujah !
What a boring weekend. Except for an hour or so Saturday afternoon and again Saturday night, I did nothing all weekend. We were suppose to go out for supper but that was postponed. It was too cold to take the kids tobogganing so I ended up making banana bread and apple sauce. Exciting ! They were outside playing for an hour or so and they all came in with their faces and ears bright red. Really cold wind !
Kylee spent the night at a friend's and Kate was on a date so at least I had the computer all to myself. Bonus ! Jason's parents must be getting tired of Kate there - they had to "remind" Jason to take her home at 2 am Saturday night. She blames him - he doesn't want to leave. He is so whupped. At least this time she phoned me and told me where she was and that they were watching a movie. I don't care if she is out - just please let me know where. She doesn't understand I used to have anxiety attacks when she was out. I am getting better about it but I still can't sleep til she's home. Now I am finally understanding what I put my parents through when I was younger - makes me want to hug my mom and say "I'm sorry". And just think, I only have 3 more girls to go through this with. I am going to be sooo grey - it's a wonder I'm not already.
I am finally caught up on my laundry so today all I have to do is dishes, vacuuming, change beds, more laundry after I change beds and find something for supper. It is so cold out in the living room though, I hate relying on wood heat only I don't want to go out there. I just want to go back to bed and wait for Wednesday.
Friday, February 06, 2004 -
Guess who is home again today??? My god ! Another snow day. I was suppose to have a job interview today but when I stepped outside at 6:30 am to take Milt to work, I said forget it. It had already started snowing and blowing. Kate left to catch the bus then they announced her bus was cancelled so they had to come back. The rest were just getting their coats and boots on when their's were cancelled so so much for today ! They were so wired all morning, I was ready to throw them all outside.
We spent 20 minutes getting wood in and my face was frozen ! It had stopped snowing but it is really cold out. Now it is snowing again. Damn, I hate winter.
The curling yesterday was fun. Kate and Jason and me and Kylee went out for lunch first. That was cool - I think Jason thinks we're all nuts. (We are ! He better get used to it) The curling was hard to keep track of what was going on cause there was actually 5 draws going on at the same time. Confusing !
Christie phoned and wants Kwyn to be her ring-bearer at her wedding in June. I haven't said anything to him about it - he wouldn't have a clue what that meant but I think he'll have fun doing it, as long as he behaves. Reghanne is of course the flower girl so together they could spell trouble. I think the date is set for June 12 unless she can't get the reception room she wants then it will be in October. I love weddings !
Dennis is still hassling us about getting married - no thanks. He can marry Milt if he wants Milt married that bad. I couldn't imagine going to the time and hassle now after almost 21 years. Gee, I wonder what we'll do for our anniversary this year? Maybe it'll be like my birthday and he won't be speaking to me. One could only hope !
Feisty today, aren't I? LOL I spent ALL day Wednesday cleaning the house - Milt came home and I told him I needed the car Thursday and his response was "well, fuck, you don't do anything at home all day anyway". I was so pissed so I have not touched anything since. I just want to shove something down his throat, something sharp.
Monday, February 02, 2004 -
The kids finally went back to school today. Thank god !
The Willie Parade was fun - short but fun. After I took the kids to New Orleans Pizza for a pizza eating contest. They had fun but it was so gross to watch kids stuff their faces with pizza. We went tobagganing Sunday afternoon but the snow was too wet and their tobaggans weren't going very fast. It got me out of the house, so who cares. I had fun.
My sinus cold has finally gone. I hate being sick. I still am getting toothaches but I can live with those. Not sinus headaches though.
I have one slightly used, slightly bent boy, going cheap. LOL Cheap ! Real cheap ! In fact, I'll pay someone ! LOL He means well but boy, I didn't know 1 5-year old boy could drive me so insane.
I won tickets for the National Men's Curling Championship on Thursday afternoon. Kate and Jason are coming with me. Kylee wanted to until she found out she would be watching it, not playing it.
I have a job interview on Friday. Its a temp agency that is just starting but hopefully she gets new clients soon. I can handle temp ! Get in, get out before anyone finds out how badly things are screwed up. LOL I still haven't heard anything from the School Board but I don't figure on it. Thanks to some asshole that thought it would be funny to call CAS and tell them we had no food in the house. Dick.
Life is improving, slowly. I haven't been spending as much time online lately - I can't sit still long enough. This is the longest I've sat here in days. I am finally losing weight !!!!!!! Yippee. All I had to do was stop eating. Lots more to go but it is a start.
Hopefully the changes will be noticable soon.
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